GLEANINGS from Claudia: Disappointment

“But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God’s unfailing love forever and ever.  I will praise you forever for what you have done; in your name I will hope, for your name is good. I will praise you in the presence of your saints.”  Psalm 52:8-9

Disappointment visited me last night.  Jacob and the girls are moving to our area.  A couple of obvious needs related to such a move stand out clearly – Jacob needs a job and the family needs a home.  We are praying into those two needs and seeking the opportunities that would meet those needs – trusting God as we seek.  On a parallel track Steve and I have been looking for a rental property with the hope that the place that we find would be a support to Jacob and the girls for a season.  Jacob hopes to buy his own place, but that needs to be a bit down the road, so utilizing our rental would be a good first step toward that goal. 

Steve and I haven’t bought a lot of homes in our lifetime and we’ve never owned more than one at a time, so this is a goal that is stretching us. Every time we’ve had cause to buy a home the search has ended when we’ve walked into a place and just knew right away that the home we were touring was our new home.  That happened with a home we toured about a week ago – we loved the home, loved the location and hoped we could offer an amount that would work for the seller and make it our place.  We could clearly picture Jacob and the girls in this home.  We stepped out in faith and made our offer.

Last night we heard that the offer was rejected and found that the counter-offer wouldn’t work for us either.  Disappointment.  Everything about the home and about the timing seemed so perfect.  I had to remind myself that from the beginning of this search Steve and I have chosen to trust God.  He knows our needs, He knows Jacob’s needs, He even knows the needs of the future renters that Steve and I hope to bless.  He also knows the needs of the current home owners who rejected our offer.  I can trust Him and I will trust Him.  I love the verse from Psalm 52 and the picture of me ‘like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God.’  God has the ultimate green thumb and cares for a tree in His house in the most perfect way possible.  Talk about a flourishing tree!  I also love it that an olive tree is a source of sustenance and rich provision.  A flourishing tree means blessing, upon blessing and nourishment for others who have access to the tree.  Like that tree in the house of God I choose to stand and wait and trust in the one who cares for me and those that I love.  Lord – your unfailing love is forever and ever.  I trust in that love and in You the perfect gardener and provider.  I praise You for Your great care for me and those I love!

“But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.”  Psalms 13:5-6


About Gleanings from Claudia

I am a wife, mother, grandmother,sister, and friend newly introduced to grief as I lost my 32 year old daughter in an auto accident in December 2010. I am a follower of Jesus and am journeying through grief while abiding in Christ.
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3 Responses to GLEANINGS from Claudia: Disappointment

  1. Carol S says:

    😦 Bummer! God is at work. We can trust His ways even when we don’t understand them. I’m praying that God will provide abundantly for Jacob and the girls as they “move” forward.

  2. Donna Anderson says:

    Dear Steve and Claudia, I know that God has just the place and in His timing. Just walked with my daughter and her family through this very thing for their transfer from Pleasant Hill,OR to Battle Ground, Wa (check out those names!!!). God was in it all the way. They had several disappointments and yet, He blessed them with a home above and beyond their hopes. May God give you peace and courage as you search for just the right home. Our kids wanted a home with an attached apartment so they too could bless renters and, in the future, possibly parents as we age!! God gave it to them and they found renters in need of a reasonably priced place that could accommodate the couples’ two dogs, at the first church they visited!!!! He is faithful. Bless your search.

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