“You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt
offerings. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.” Psalms 51:16-17
Exactly three weeks ago today I had a difficult interaction with the grand-girls that resulted in God calling me to repentance and showing me some idols that I had lifted up in my life. Since God changed my attitude I’ve been so blessed by the difference in the girls and in our interactions. God has given me a steadfast spirit intent upon loving the girls
even while I discipline them or hold the line. I haven’t fallen into shouting or anger, but have managed to state my case with evenness and love. I pray for the girls and our interactions each day as I drive to their home. I pray over them audibly as we drive to school asking God to bless their days and to use them to encourage and support those in their classrooms who are struggling. It seems to me that they are flourishing under this treatment.
Today Dara had a difficult math assignment. It was work that she could do very easily, but there was a lot of it and she just plain didn’t want to settle down to it. I ended up confiscating a treasured toy until she finished her homework. She expended a lot of emotional energy and angst about the homework and about the lost toy, but in the final analysis she hunkered down and got a significant portion of the work done before I delivered her home at the end of the day. I turned the confiscated property over to Jacob
to be returned to Dara when her work was complete. I encouraged her that we could try again tomorrow, at least if she has homework, and see if she can have the toy near her while she focuses on her work. I know she didn’t like the way her afternoon went, but we never ended up arguing with each other or saying things we would later regret. She saw that the line held even when she pushed on it and whined. She saw that I love her no matter what, but I won’t give in to her.
I so appreciate God’s work in me and the positive impact on my interactions with these two young ladies that I love deeply. O Lord – keep on refining me — cause dross to rise to the surface where it appalls me to see it, but where it can be dealt with by Your mighty grace and power. Thank You for this ongoing work of transformation and love in my life!
“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me”. Ps 51:10