GLEANINGS from Claudia: Joy and Grief; Grief and Joy

“Are you asking one another what I meant when I said, ‘In a little while you will see me no more, and then after a little while you will see me’? I tell you the truth you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.” John 16:19-22

Happy birthday to me. Today is my birthday and Saturday was Joni’s birthday. We had so much fun celebrating over the weekend because Kristin and her family, Jacob and his girls, Joni, and Steve and I were all together.  As always when we are together we laugh, we play cards, we eat too much, we think about the future and we reminisce the past. We went to a new coffee place in town and enjoyed each other in that atmosphere. At home we listened to the girls screaming and laughing, running from just over two-year-old Patrick as he acted the part of the cutest monster ever chasing them around the house for all he was worth. It was a weekend of delight.

It was also a sad weekend. Even now I tear up as I think of who was missing. Becky was so ‘there’ in all of our hearts and minds and so ‘not there’ in physical presence. Last year on this same weekend we were also all together. Our church was immersed in celebrating our new building and giving glory to God who provided it. The kids all came to participate in that celebration and to share our birthdays. I have brief video clips of Becky on the couch just down from me and threatening me with all manner of harm if I don’t quit taking video of her. The camera pans slowly around the room catching Kristin across from me on the love seat, Christopher in the big, comfy chair and Joni in the lounger. And then it pans back to Becky again. There is nothing of import here, nothing to say ‘hold on to this moment forever, soon she will be gone’, but oh how glad I am to have the sound of her voice recorded and that picture of her in the ubiquitous red cap.

I had private moments of tears as I missed her this weekend and I know others of the family experienced the same thing. Laughter and tears; joy and sorrow; are now ever intermixed in the hours of my days. I wait on a greater joy to come – a grand reunion in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ. I’ve heard it said that one moment in glory will completely do away with all of the pain and suffering and grief and longing of this world.
All the questions will fade into glory and I will stand in the presence of the perfect, complete, and ravishing answer.

“For the Son of God, Jesus Christ, who was preached among you by me and Silas and Timothy, was not “Yes” and “No,” but in him it has always been “Yes.” For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ.” 2 Corinthians 1:19-20



About Gleanings from Claudia

I am a wife, mother, grandmother,sister, and friend newly introduced to grief as I lost my 32 year old daughter in an auto accident in December 2010. I am a follower of Jesus and am journeying through grief while abiding in Christ.
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2 Responses to GLEANINGS from Claudia: Joy and Grief; Grief and Joy

  1. I am so sorry your lost your precious daughter. My heart goes out to you. You will be in my heart and prayers.

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