I remember loving this song over the years that I’ve sung it. In the past I was acutely aware that I’d not experienced the depth of sorrow that the song acknowledges. I didn’t ‘know’ — and I’d not been called to bless and praise the Lord in the face of agonizing pain. Now I know. There have been days when it is hard to enter into praise. Those are the days when the sorrow and questions and unanswerable loss well up and surround and enter me like an impenetrable fog. There are also days when the praise and worship just bubble up and out – like this morning. I did nothing other than awaken into praise!

I remember at some time participating in a ‘trust’ exercise.  I stood with a blindfold on in a very quiet room unable to see or hear anything. My job in this exercise was to simply fall backward. Every part of me screamed ‘No! Don’t do something so foolish!” My life experience taught me that to fall backward meant pain and possibly severe injury. But I also knew that a circle of friends stood behind me ready to catch me when I fell. I feel like I’m experiencing a trust exercise now. I have the choice of holding onto pain and standing
in the unfairness of such an untimely death or of trusting what I know – that God is good and eternity waits and this separation is temporary. Today I awoke trusting and praising God in the inner man. What a blessing!

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13