Grief is a hard companion, but not one without redeeming moments. I want to share a story from Day 19 of this grief journey, Sunday, January 16, 2011. On this Sunday I was still with my son-in-law Jacob and our two granddaughters, Amity (10 years old) and Dara (8 years old). The girls and I tend to process our grief and tears in the morning. On this Sunday morning Dara started asking questions about her Mom’s death and about the hospital. I answered where I could and honestly told her that I didn’t know the answer when that was the case. After we cried together a while Dara asked if she could type a letter to her Mom and Jesus on my laptop. I opened a document and showed her how. This is what she typed:
“Mom, I will miss you. I want to see you so much. Will you ask God if you could come down for a while? I did not want you to die.
To jesus and mom from dara
Love you forever.”
We printed the letter and Dara carried it to her room. I told Dara I thought the letter was wonderful. I mentioned that Jesus doesn’t often send people back, especially when they have been with him for quite a while, but that he does sometimes let people come to visit in dreams or visions. I suggested to her that she could directly ask Jesus for this in prayer. That night as we prayed before bedtime Dara did ask for this and so did I.
The next morning Dara came to my room early, about 6 a.m. — a rare thing for her as she generally sleeps later. I mentioned to her that she was up bright and early and she said that she had a ‘kind’a bad dream.’ I asked if she wanted to tell me about it. She related that the family had all been together and her little four year old cousin, Helen, had been standing on the couch reaching for something. Helen fell into a corner behind the couch and a black widow spider bit her. She was rushed to the hospital, but, in Dara’s words, she didn’t make it. However, Jesus saw all of this and decided that Helen was too little to be away from her Mom and Dad so ‘she’ sent her back. When ‘she’ sent Helen back ‘she’ sent her Mom back too. Dara saw a very bright light and her Mom was in it. Dara talked to her Mom and her Mom told Dara that she had loved her life on earth so much, but that she was really loving her life in heaven with Jesus. Then the dream ended.
That night when I went into Dara’s room to read to her, pray with her, and kiss her goodnight, she was on her knees praying.
What a blessing this experience was to me. To know that God hears the prayers of a broken-hearted little girl and sends her a dream or vision of her Mother to soothe her heart quieted my hurting heart. I love it that in this dream Becky is so positive about both her life on earth and her life in heaven. Dara seemed to obtain a measure of peace with the thought that the past was precious to Becky and that her current reality is wonderful too.
Thank You Lord!!
“Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.” Matthew 19:14-15