“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

At times it is hard not to lose heart.  I feel like I am fighting a battle against grief’s grip on my life.  I win skirmishes and progress toward a normal, productive life and then I’m waylaid by sniping from an unforeseen surprise ambush that sets me back again.  Sometimes this is about Becky and sometimes not.

Today I just want to go home.  I want to be in that place where relationship with God and others is primary and cherished.  Where peace reigns and men and women of varied gifts, cultures, and races together worship and serve Almighty God.  To be face-to-face with Jesus and reunited with family and introduced to family I haven’t yet met.  What joy that will be!

Sorrows are many and pervasive from the life-altering events that rock the world of a warrior Mom that I hold dear to the cataclysmic skirmishes of war that end in death and rock the whole world.  It is never-ending . . . until that day when the old order of things will die and God will dwell with men.  How I long for that day! Come quickly Lord Jesus! Come!  In the meantime I hold onto the hope I see in Jesus – in His life, in His death, in His resurrection.  How I admire the way that this God-Man lived out His days and how I long to live just like Him.  Praise Him that He IS come and lives in me and others who follow Him.  Oh Lord Jesus – continue to live out Your death-conquering life of redemption and restoration through me, through us, Your followers!

“Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last. I am the Living One; I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades.”  Revelation 1:17-18

“Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”  Revelation 21:3-4